Second Half

I calculated that I haven't been in Mali even half of the time that I will fully spend here. Wierd. I feel like I've been gone for a while. 17 days spent/20 days left. Should I feel guilty about living the dream so hard core? Nope.

The first half of the trip, a lot of time has been spent in Ashley and Joe's village. Which has been awesome and will be nearly impossible to top, but we'll see. Relationships, relationships, relationships: as of right now, i've concluded the best part of traveling and seeing the world is the relationships built in the process. Meeting new individuals, observing their different "way of life", and gaining new perspectives from that relationship is truly the fun part. That's definitely what Joe and Ashley's village "Kalibombo" has offered.

The second half of the trip, will be quite different then the first half - more traveling, more adventure seeking, and river floating...

The plan is to spend Christmas and New Year's Eve with other Peace Corps volunteer's at different locations in Mali, which I'm not sure of - i'm pretty much just along for the ride. The little brother that just tags along. Kind of weird that Christmas is nearly here and I haven't seen a Christmas tree, snow, presents, a nativity scene, etc... It'll be a different Christmas, but we'll still celebrate the birth of our Savior like rock stars.

More questions that I'm thinking through: How does my generation connect two worlds (U.S. and the Third World) that have been so disconnected for so long? Not financially connect, but relationally connect.

What do I hold as core principles in my life? Do I reflect those on a daily bases? How much of my world is consumed by myself?

As a nation, have we economically progressed too much? Is there such a thing? Does our financial wealth, material possessions, and technological advancements pull us farther away from looking like the social structure that Christ intended?

Chew on it for a little bit and try to spit something out. At some point I will answer all these questions I'm asking, not with answers, but with my thoughts.

Okay. Peace from Mail, West Africa. And dangit, comment on my blog - it's the fun part.

On our way to Ashley and Joe's Village "Kalibombo" for the first time

Joe and Ashley's house in the village (I tried to be artistic)

Our outfits during thier celebration/holiday - we pull it off well?

Living in the Moment

Here I am. In Africa once again. I'll attempt to make this post a short summary of the past 13 days, but I'm bad at summary's and at being short (especially with this kind of stuff). So we'll see.

So after my departure on Dec. 1st and 3 days of traveling - Two nights, one spent on a plane and one spent on an airport bench (which I spent 18 hours at, in between flights), twenty of hours in the air, and 2 hours on the ground traveling - I made it to Mali, West Africa. I have to admit traveling alone is not all too great, especially if you don't know the language, but I managaed to make a few friends (one of which is going to take me out for wine when I reach France - free ninety-nine).

The past 13 days have been jam packed full of experiences, traveling, and new relationships. I spent two days in the capital, Bamako, with Ashely and Joe - we ate pizza, ice cream, drank wine, and walked the city. Then traveled 15 hours, with Joe and Ashely and around 10 other Peace Corps volunteers to a Bandigara, a town that Joe and Ashley live 3 Km from. Biked to Ashely and Joe's village "Kalibombo". National Geographic style the town is home to 500-600 Dogon people, the historical cliff dwellers of Mali. No running water, electricity, or fast food; the village life has been a BLAST!

Eating communal style and utilizaing our hands as utensils with the chief of the village and his family three times a day is a experience of a life time. Toe - a starchy, dough-like substance that taste like dough, dirt, and pesticide all combined together in a bowl or rice are the usual dishes of non-choice. Toe, i will state may be the worst meal i've ever had, which the flies, dirty hands colliding together, and the mystery sacues do not help make it easier. It's awesome. After we are done eating, we are given the opportunity to simply just hang out with the family and other community members - My favorite so far.

In addition, we've witnessed the slaughtering of goats, i've danced Beyonce style in a circle surrounded by women and drums, participated in a festical called "Tabaski", joined in a muslim prayer ceremony with the town's men (obviously I was praying to Jesus), took bucket showers, played 2 hours of soccer with the guys of the village, every night drank hot choclate on the roof while discussing Jesus and life, and was given a naming ceremony - which my Dogon name is Ansegeramo Djigiba. I love the village, it has been such an awesome experience and challenging as well - but it's all about making memories and "Enjoying the Journey".

Last two days we traveled to a city called Mopti, which the Niger River runs through. We met up with some of Joe and Ashley's Peace Corp friends - which are a lot of fun. As we were sitting at a Restaurant/Bar overlooking the Niger River as the sun started to set and drinking a beer, we were approached by a couple of Malian men. They asked us if we wanted to accompany them on their boat to float across the Niger, wait for less then a dollar? Ummm....Yeah. So there we sat Joe, Ashley, I, and their 4 friends floating across the Niger river, in Mali West Africa, as the sun was setting, just living the dream and enjoying the Journey. It was incredible.

Alright Alright, i'm almost done. Very briefly with a lot of events and detail left out that is the sum up of my last 13 days. Crazy part is that, I still have a month left. Exciting.

Now depth: What has Christ been doing? He has been asking me a few questions: Where is the Holy Spirit in my life? Where do I fit in the World of Development? Shoot, What is even development and how does me being a follower of Christ shape that answer? Big one always in Africa is Community - What is Africa teaching me about Community? As I work through these questions i'll be sharing my thoughts. Probably after the trip is over - more time and dependable internet.

Love you all. Know that I am safe, with family, and having a blast!

Joe and Ashley's blog, with Photos: http://www.wollersheimtime.blogspot.com/

Boarding the boat with my Turban on, one with the people!

The sunset as we floated across the Niger River

Just the usual day of work - in actuality i took that bale from a kid, took a picture with it, and gave it back to him

Every night we sip down some hot choclate on top of Joe and Ashley's roof

UNadressed

“We Claim this truth as Christians. All has been forgiven. But let’s also use a slightly different phrase: the work of the cross is in us. There is Jesus’ death on our behalf once and for all, there is the ongoing work of the cross in our hearts and minds and souls and lives. There is the ongoing need to return to the cross to be reminded of our brokenness and dependence on God. There is the healing we need from the cross every day” – Rob Bell

I think I have become so content with life and where God has placed me, that I ignore the brokenness or hurt in my life. Life has become tolerable, which is apart of believing in a God bigger then this world.  But I don’t want tolerable, I want freedom from all brokenness. 

 Where is the brokenness? I’ve moved along with my life, left some issues unresolved, and am moving past them – unaddressed.

 Contentment sometimes blinds us from reality. I know there are regrets, insecurities, and anger that reside in my life that I am blinded to, because of this contentment.

 Unaddressed sin, brokenness, hurt, pain, etc…. are all ways in which Satan pulls us farther away from restoration and our original design and ultimately a full and complete relationship with Jesus.

 Thank God that I believe. Restoration is only found through Jesus – the cross wasn’t only about forgiveness, forgiveness leads us to restoration. Salvation is for all of me. I want it all. I’m working on it.

 “It is one thing to be saved. To believe in Jesus. It is another thing to be healed. It is possible to be saved and miserable. It is possible to be saved and not be a healthy, whole, life-giving person. It is possible for the cross to have done something for a person but not in them”            – Rob Bell

Desire

It is incredible how, in my spiritual life, I can tell if I’m blogging or not. Not that I hit a low of any sorts, but there is a certain amount of contentment I gain and growth I lack. I believe it has been a couple of months since my last post for various reasons – school year starting with Young Life, occupied by friends, lack of commitment to the blog, other ways in which I’ve been flushing out thoughts (small group and individual conversations). In all of that though, I miss my blog. There is a certain aspect about getting my thoughts down on paper, that I don’t gain anywhere else.

God has been faithful to me (in more ways then one). The past three months I have been stretched, challenged, humbled, doubtful, confused, but ultimately joyful. The ever challenging concept of trust, has proven to be effective and real.

This past weekend I was challenged and blessed. Young Life at ASU (YL@ASU) each fall holds a "college weekend", a weekend up in Northern Arizona at a Young Life camp. We encourage students to join us for the weekend, with the hope that either they will be introduced to a relationship with Jesus for the first time or be able to further that relationship. In the weekend I brought with me 5 guys, who were all sophomore's possessing different relationships with Jesus, different perspectives about what that relationship meant, and different desires to further that relationship.

Throughout the weekend I was able to lead a small group with these 5 guys, where we took the messages we heard throughout the weekend and discussed them. They challenged me. Without getting into too much detail - a lot of our conversations surrounded the idea of what a relationship with Jesus meant. A couple of them were disgusted with the Church's over used and sermonized concept of sin. One guy was challenged with this idea of "trust". Not wanting to place all his trust in something, if it could turn out to be false. How do we know Jesus is real? Then stating "all I want is to be able to trust someone". We talked about life experiences and the messages taken from those experiences. These guys were smart, honest, opinionated, and challenged what they heard (something that I admired).

Throughout the weekend we worked through these issues and questions. In that, God opened my eyes to another aspect of "our personal relationship with HIM". It is personal. Personal enough, where our relationship is what we make it. Words and seeking advice can only go so far, we have to want it. I have to possess a desire to want to address my brokenness and my weaknesses (sin). I have to possess a desire to want to further my relationship, sacrifice, and be challenged. Without that desire, we put on blinders to our sin and brokenness and brakes to a relational growth with Jesus.

I cannot expect to feel the tangibleness and joy of God, if I don't desire to seek it (him). Then once we desire to seek, we must ask ourself what seeking Christ even looks like?

I now understand that this desire for Christ produces freedom, healing, purpose, comfort, and joy; in a world where I'm seeing more and more brokenness and the pain involved.

Planning a Greater Plan

Topic of the post: planning. I’m at a point in my life where majority of people are planning out there next 5 -10 years. Envisioning where they will be, married or not married, their job, finances, kids or no kids, buying a house, where they will live, etc… I’ve done that. I’m doing that, but Jesus has determined to challenge my thinking, my planning, my vision (more then once).

Odd to imagine that 5 years ago I was considering pursuing a career as an accountant. If you know me at all today, that statement might provoke laughter. An accountant? I can’t identify a job that could be farther away from who I am today. But bound for college, I had to come up with a plan. I had to vision myself 5 years from then and sketch a plan for my life.

Today, I am supposed to be overseas, pursuing a job in international development (still high priority on my agenda). I had “planned” a year ago that August of ’08 I would be volunteering somewhere in Africa. Still in Tempe, AZ.

Right now I’m suppose to have a job. I’m suppose to be saving money for my departure next February, which would allow me to stay overseas for a long period of time. Mali is/was the destination, where family and opportunity are present.

See the pattern? Planning hasn’t quite worked for me.

James 4:13 

"Now listen, you who say, “ Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money. Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “ If it sit the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”

I don’t know where I’ll be in 6 months, a year, absolutely not 5 or 10 years. No idea. Every time I have planned, God’s plan is the one that has prevailed. God’s plan has ended placing me somewhere that I feel completely blessed. That’s what I really want; “God’s will to be done” with my life. It is not an easy concept to live out though; there is a ton amount of trust and uncertainty involved, which has called me to persevere through the circumstances.

James 1:4

"Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

Perseverance in these circumstances I feel has done just that. The last three months of my life have been challenging in fighting social expectations, searching for direction, and feeling without purpose. I truly believe that God has closed doors and I have remained without a job in the past three month because of this greater plan concept. I can easily say that I have learned more about myself and who my savior is, in these three months than in any other point in my life. And in these three months I have been overwhelmed with blessings. God has provided financially and with various opportunities that have enabled me to follow my “God Placed” passions. (that’s a whole other post though). Amen.

Conclusion: I do not want this post to come off as; that I believe one’s life should involve no planning at all. That’s merely impossible and quite irresponsible. I’m still trying to figure out how to decipher that line. This is what I’ve come up with so far: as followers of Christ, our number initiative is to “Do the Will of God”. If we take the passions and talents God has instilled in us and use them to bring him glory, God will direct us where we fit in his “big” plan. As we receive that direction, we are planning to pursue excellence, but always maintaining Christ at the forefront of everything.

Thoughts, comments, challenges, questions………

Ah, That's Perfect!

Hello all my brotha’s and sista’s. I’ve been meaning to blog the past couple of days, but because of my insanely busy schedule? I haven’t had time. No, I just have to be in the right frame of mind. And this morning I happen to be in that mind frame. Well, I don’t have a lot to say today, but I was really excited about what Justin had to say on Sunday. Which only makes me want to share it with my fellow bloggers. I also feel that the scripture answered a few questions from the last post and the comments that came afterwards.

Gitty-Up! Justin spoke on discipleship, which being a disciple of Jesus is living and walking as Jesus. Then emphasizing the purpose of the Church is to make disciples of Jesus, right? Living and walking is much more then just believing in Jesus as our savior, the word and truth are taken into our lifestyle. We chase after truth and live by the truth. We’ve talked about this before, being a Christian means being an active follower of Christ. But let’s take it to a whole other level.

The greatness of knowing Christ surpasses EVERYTHING. Do I/you truly believe that? If the answer is yes, then what are the implications of such a belief? God is better then anything and above everything. It’s a good thing. Not a dictatorship type betterness, a freeing, loving, and at peace betterness. I want to have a perfect relationship with Jesus, since it is the best possible life to live.

Philippians 3:12

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of what for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider yourself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

God wants a perfect relationship with us. I deem that awesome. That God of the universe wants to have a perfect relationship with me.

Sin exists, which keeps us from this perfect relationship, but do not let sin be an excuse. When I thought about this all I could think about was this idea of a Dead Christian (those words contradict themselves) versus an Alive Christian. A Dead Christian being someone who is stagnant in his or her relationship with Jesus. In a stand still, no growth. An Alive Christian, someone that is experiencing movement and growth towards Jesus. Each step taken to increase that relationship is a step taken towards establishing a perfect relationship with Jesus. No matter where we are at in our relationship. Conquering sin one step at a time. Though we determine how fast or slow we want this progression to take and the implications of our determination.

This is what God said to me on Sunday,

“I want a Perfect relationship with you. In that I will give you the greatest Joy, the most Strength, and the grandest power in Sharing who I am.”

In-Tent-Chin-Haul

Feels like forever since I last blogged. Quick life update. Spent some time in Iowa over the fourth of July, which I was able to spend with family. I love my family. It is amazing how I can look at my siblings, as not only family but best friends as well. I give all the credit to Jesus. Jesus lives within each one of my brothers and sisters and I know that is why our relationships are so unique. While I was in Iowa I said good-bye to my sister Ashley and her husband Joe for a while, since they left for their 27 month adventure in Mali, Africa where they will be working for the Peace Corp. I’m completely jealous, but also am excited to see how God molds their hearts during their experience. Other than that my life is exactly the same. No job, great friends.

Today I am going to take a break from the topic of community, though I have a couple more areas of community I want to discuss. This will be done later. Right now God has been throwing something else my way. For about the past few weeks God has been challenging me with this idea of being an intentional Christian.

This whole concept for me is hard to convey on paper, but let’s give it a shot. Through my own personal walk, being completely “on fire” for Christ one second, wanting to live out a life completely dedicated to him, feeling attached and devoted, wanting to love others, and allowing God to enter into various areas of my life which then transcends into a luke warm or a semi- 62 degree relationship. This is a concept; I believe every Christian can relate to, which is referred to a lot of time as the “spiritual rollercoaster”.

I hate the spiritual rollercoaster. I love it when I am completely sold out for Christ. So why? Why is it like this? Why can’t we just get it and live it always. This is what I’ve come up with so far. Quite simple, I think its cause we live in a world covered with sin.

The sin acts as a barrier to having a continuous whole-hearted relationship with Jesus. As humans we are slaves to sin, but the freedom lies within Jesus, righteousness. This is where the intentional part comes in. As Christians we must be intentional, each day, about being in an active relationship with Jesus, to seek righteousness and break us from this bon of sin. It’s an intentional lifestyle.

Romans 6:16                                                                                                                                             Don’t you know that when you offer yourselves to someone to obey him as slaves, you are slaves to the one whom you obey – whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness?

We’ve made the point over and over, that life, as a Christian is not easy. Jesus calls us to much more than what “the world” offers. To reach that, to chase after that, I have to as a Christian intentionally and actively seek God everyday. A visit to church on Sunday, reading scripture every once in a while, praying when I want to, seeking God when it’s convenient, are areas that are going to keep me in this rollercoaster.

 Intentional – reading scripture everyday, maintaining a healthy prayer life, being in discussions with friends and family about Jesus, being involved with Church or other faith based organizations, pursuing a healthy Christian community, serving, sharing Jesus, allowing God to challenge your beliefs, continually learning, daily devotionals / “quiet times”, etc…

 Yesterday at Church, the Pastor Justin spoke about worship, which fits in exactly with this idea of being intentional everyday. I’m going to try to sum it up, very briefly, and suck at it, but bear with me. He spoke out of Romans 1:12 and how we are in active worship every day all day. Everything we do is because we are worshiping something. In these acts of worship we are given two choices, to worship God or someone/something else. For example, every night we choose to either worhip our body by going straight to sleep or worship God, by spending some time in prayer. A little more in-depth, many of us choose to worship image over God. Comparing ourselves to others, not being satisfied with who we are, wanting more, etc… Which leads to envy, insecurities, anger, and pulls us farther away from Jesus.

 Intentional. All day every day. Crazy. Worth it. The best thing about this whole concept, that I love, is that I want to be intentional about Jesus. It’s not cause I have this book with all these rules and regulations, which if I don’t follow I’m going to hell. It’s cause I’m in love with Jesus and in Jesus there is freedom from this dark, horrible, and depressing world. I want a life of freedom. I want to “live the dream” and “enjoy the journey”.

 Think about a life of no spiritual rollercoaster’s. You are always on a spiritual high, ready to tackle anything. Always feeling like that summer at Younglife camp, when you hear a good Sunday sermon, that drive home after a good discussion about Jesus, those times when you feel God the most. All day every day. The implications are huge. I want that.

 What are your guy’s thoughts? Any ideas of how to make this intentional life style easier? 

tangible LOVE

Tangible love, what a fun concept, figuring out how we can love on our neighbors. Doesn't get much better then that. After reading all the post and spending some time in the scripture, I have some thoughts:

I think we all have agree'd that Community is important, to have an active relationship with others (I believe Christian or non-Christian) is crucial. So does Jesus:

1 John 3:18
"Dear Children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth."

Love is active and in Truth. The actions that our love produces is guided by the Truth that God has given. That is awesome. These are a couple of verses I found that can guide us in this "Truth" love:

Hebrews 10:24-25
"And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another -- and all the more as you see the day approaching.

Loving others means encouraging one another. Encouraging friends, family, and strangers in life and in their relationship with Christ. "Spur" one another on toward love and good deeds. Push people into being stronger "lovers" and "better" people. I really enjoy this verse for a couple of reasons: 1. Encouraging to me, also means, spuring people to love Jesus more (the ultimate goal). 2. The more we spur other to love Jesus, the more power the body of Christ holds, which allows us to share the love, freedom, and salvation that Our savior holds to greater numbers.

Next, my sister Aubrey left a comment with this verse outlined:

1 Corinthians 13:1-13
Love is PATIENT and KIND. Love is NOT JEALOUS or BOASTFUL or PROUD or RUDE. It does NOT DEMAND its own way. It is NOT IRRITIABLE, and it keeps NO RECORD of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but REJOICES WITH THE TRUTH Love NEVER gives up, NEVER loses faith, is always HOPEFUL, and ENDURES through every circumstance."

Each section of this verse is a blog post alone, so I'm not going to dissect it too much. Read this verse and then think of the power of love. Though I've read this verse several times in the past, this time it rocked my world. I belive it's becasue I'm looking from a different perspective now. I desire to truly live a life in which I love my nieghbor, no matter who it is, with each of these characteristics. Though the nature of sin makes it nearly impossible, I believe there are levels of success, depending on how intentional (or serious) we are on showing Christ's love. Throughout the day, I catch myself in certain circumstances, reciting the section of this verse that is related to whatever is happening.

While you read through this, are there any verses that pop in your head that exhibit Christ's love and a love that we should possess? Share please! In the mean time:

Let's ENCOURAGE all lovers of Jesus to be intentional about LOVE

the People

OK, personal update. Did not receive the job with ICAN.org, but I came in second, which is worthless in obtaining a job, but great for self-esteem. Low on money, but high on life. God has allowed this jobless time for something else, which has been to build a few relationships further. Shout out to Dom and Steve. Side note- It’ funny how we get stuck in meeting the standards of society, that we forget how God works differently. God wasn’t looking for a job with me, at least at this point, God was placing his hands in other places. I was so involved in trying to find a job, that I didn’t identify God’s labor else where, until basically last night. Moving on.

Alright, there are a few areas of thought that have been consuming me for the past few weeks, in which I’ll express as best as I can.  Hopefully, you can help me. I also have an idea of a topic I want to address for the next few weeks as well, but I’ll explain that later.

Community. This idea of community has been dragging and jerking me in all different directions. I believe that this issue has been intentionally laid on my heart, which I’m trying to figure out as well. So let’s get heated.

Our “Christian Community” today, I suspect, for the most part, is very far from the Community that Christ intended for us. I have come to believe this is due to two separate areas: 1. We’ve become too intertwined with the world we live in, that we have begun to take on worldly characteristics and most of us are totally unaware of it. 2. The nature of sin has led us down a path of individualism, in which we’ve chosen to push aside various teachings of Jesus and pick and choose what is comfortable for ourselves.

As Jesus quoted to a lawyer, “Thou shall love the Lord thy God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all mind, and with all your strength. And your neighbor as yourself”

Love thy God, basically fully, with everything you got. Love God. As Becca pointed out from the previous post, with seeking God and righteousness, our Love becomes active. Which is pointed out in “Love your neighbor as yourself”. Huge implications in that statement, especially how we have grown to love our selves A LOT. A question I began to ask myself is, how much time do we dedicate to our selves? I’m going to go ahead and make up a statistic and say the time we use on ourselves has to be in the 90 percentile. Shopping for instance, how often do we shop for our neighbor vs. our self? Hm…..

 So, when Jesus says, “Love your neighbor as yourself” that would completely change everything. And think of what it would do. Would poverty exist? Would there be hunger? And I’m convinced believers would continually multiply, due to the works, produced from a loving body. And so on.

I think the hardest part about this concept, is what does loving our neighbor fully look like. Other than a yearly charity donation, a one-dollar bum giveaway, or coffee once a week with a friend, though those are all important and good – for many it’s not challenging enough. Pet peeve of mine (probably shouldn’t be), is when people say, in some type of certain context “I’m just going to love people”.  What does that mean? How do we actively and love people in “all” situations? It is attractive and easy to say, but a lot of times that’s all it is, attractive and easy to say. 

So let’s try and figure it out.  Let’s dive into the word this next week and see what it tells us. How do we love our neighbor as our self? Perspectives. Stories. Whatever you got to offer, cause I throw in the towel of trying to figure it out alone. Also, I want to point out, though I make certain points, does not mean I am or feel that I am free of what I speak of. Guilty as charged.

Plus, the next few weeks, this idea of community, I want to belly flop into more. Meaning I want to hit it hard. There a couple more areas that I’ve been wrestling with, and need some help. Then, after we hit community and see where that takes us, I really want to see what Jesus and you guys have to say about money. I feel that this is at the root of a lot of evil and would make for an interesting topic. So if you want, I’m going to be reading a short and easy, but from what I’ve been told, an impacting book called, “The Treasure Principle” and you could too. That would be neat and helpful. Exciting.

Jesus

I think I love Jesus. I have become obsessed with this Man/God. Jesus is in my thoughts all day, every day. Jesus is part of my decisions. Jesus is part of my thinking. Jesus is the reason why I can sit in thought and reflection for a half an hour and learn. Jesus is why I challenge my beliefs. Jesus is definitely my comfort and security. Jesus is the main character in plenty of the books I read. Jesus is apart of my conversations. Jesus is what drives me. Jesus gives me purpose. Jesus gives me confidence. Jesus has laid goals before me, scary and exciting. Jesus is within my decision-making. Jesus is present in my convictions. Jesus is my character. I look to Jesus for answers. Jesus gives me joy in a broken world. I have hope because of Jesus. Jesus is the reason I hurt for non-believers. Jesus is my life.  This is not said for personal gratification. I write this because I want everyone to experience this relationship. I was sitting in my bed after reading a book, with Jesus involved, and I couldn’t get him out of my head. My mind started running in tangents, about myself, but always with Jesus involved. I paused for a minute and thought I am in love with Jesus. This is not becasue the Bible or a Pastor may tell me to, this is because I want to. It is different from the past and what I’ve felt before for Jesus. This is more real. This relationship is more apparent, than it ever has been. The statements I make are truth and not an ideal relationship I have created. This feels good. 

The Beginning

Ugh, it’s about time I motivated myself to start blogging again. It has been quite some time since Rwanda and my life is now seizing small and slow steps and producing great change. That is one reason why I have decided that it’s time to get back into the game. I’m at a point where there exist a lot of uncertainties. Recently graduating from Arizona State in Tempe, AZ, I am left with a heap of unanswered questions and an array of roads to elect to travel.

Which shall I travel though? Good question Aaron, cause I have no idea.

Well, aren’t you nervous? Don’t you worry about finding a job? And money, you must be running out, that must be really scary.

Hm, I would be lying to you if I said it wasn’t scary. As it should be. As a believer and follower of Christ, if Christ is really apparent in our lives and were striving to live by New Testament scripture, then life is scary. I don’t remember my Jesus ever saying that living as a Christian was easy, planned out, and full of certainty. Actually it was the exact opposite.

I am uncertain where God is planting me next or what he’ll do with my life, but as he says on the Mount,

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes……But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

                                                                        Matthew 6: 25, 33-34

 

I have read that passage many times in the past few weeks, trying to engrain it into my thinking and truly believe it as truth. The first time I read it though, I paused at “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness”. I think a lot of times in the world of “Christianity” we continually remind each other and ourselves that God will take care of us, with a phrase such as: Hey, do not worry about that, God will provide.

 

Though I believe that is most definitely correct, I also believe as Jesus says, it doesn’t come for free. He specifically gives us criteria to meet before he will provide. Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness – wow. When I first read that it kind of scared me. Am I seeking the kingdom and righteousness? What does that look like? If I’m not, I’m in this alone and I don’t want to be in this alone.

 

I believe, and this is where I love feedback, that it’s quite simple to determine but a challenge to execute. After talking to some of my homies, this is where I stand. One question of importance is , “is God apparent in my life?” I’m not asking for the I go to church, tithe, and talk about God with my kids or friends answer.  I want to know if God is apparent in your life.

 

Is he apart of your decisions? Read the bible much? Not only read, but also applying the messages you read into your life? An active Christian? Is the Sunday sermon comforting or challenging? Is God the only God you worship, other then image, money, sex, status, drugs, alcohol, etc? Is God apart of who you are in every realm?

 

Hm, if we are able to answer these, upon other questions with a Yes, then I believe we are seeking the kingdom and righteousness. That’s where my challenge has been in the past few weeks, to maintain and figure out what seeking the kingdom and righteousness means for me.

 

Also, I want to point out something really quick, because this Blog session has become something I certainly did not intend and I want to keep your attention. In that Matthew passage, when God says these things will be given to you. I believe God is talking about a lot more than just money, food, and material possessions. He is talking about relationships, joy, stability, answers, reconciliation, filling voids, etc... God is talking about rescuing us from the emptiness of this world and sealing the cracks of where our brokenness lies. Specific to each individual.

 

Point of the blog, this is what has been in my thoughts for the past couple weeks and if I’m able to put into words, it helps me work through it, receive feedback, be challenged, learn, and (key point) seek the kingdom and righteousness.